Have you ever had one of those days that ends up feeling like a long, drawn-out nightmare? You wake up, and start to go about your normal daily activities, and then something goes terribly wrong. Suddenly your life just seems like this inextricably tangled web of confusion and mistakes and misunderstandings and you just know that you'll never be able to fix it all. By early afternoon you have that half-asleep-and-half-awake feeling. It feels like it's been hours, days, even weeks since the disastrous events of the morning. The morning already feels like a distant bad dream, but at the same time, it's all you can think about and it's inescapable. Your whole life feels overwhelming and devastating and miserable, and you're too tired to cry and too upset and embarassed to tell people what's wrong, and you wish you could just sink deep into the ground without anyone noticing, if only you never had to reappear and face the world again.
Today has been one of those days. Until further notice, today has been the worst day of my life.
Anyssa, thanks for being there. I'm glad we're friends.